There are those days. You know the ones where you just feel like you are going through the motions of being a Mom.
The feelings of not enjoying your little ones or enjoying the blessings of Motherhood. And feelings of ‘Motherhood is a job’.
I am sorta in that rut right now. Almost viewing my current place in life as a drudgery, a task that needs to be done each day. I look at all the work I need to do, all the things that need to be done every day!! And things that I repeatedly do each day, that sometimes, ok, many times, have to be repeatedly done in a matter of hours. There doesn’t seem to be anything to look at and see, in a tangible way, that I HAVE done something today!!
I just fulfill the responsibilities of Motherhood and am not enjoying all the pleasures that come along. I am not even looking for those pleasures. While, yes, I do need to fulfill that task, Titus 2 asks for more – I am to love and delight in my children!!
And when I do get weary, I need to realize my only source of refreshment comes from God. He alone can refresh me, when I pause and spend time praying and in His word. I need to be diligent, in finding extra time, so I can be a better, more loving Mom.
I want a fresh vision of my boys being ‘arrows’. Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, The fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, So are the children of one’s youth. Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them. Ps 127:3-5
My responsibility is to be a delight, not a burden!! Do I think words like work, responsibility, sacrifice, burden and more work?? Or do I see heritage, fruit, reward, arrows?? My speech and actions will be shaped by my thoughts. Thinking of them as a heritage, a reward, fruit, and a blessing will alter my attitude and provide the fertile soil for my tender love to grow.
‘May this extraordinary call to commend the gospel infuse my heart with a fresh vision and enthusiasm as I seek to love my children.‘
Though the task ahead is great we have this promise!!-
My grace is sufficient for thee, my power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Cor. 12:9
Quotes taken from ‘Feminine Appeal’ by Carolyn Mahaney A really, really good book!!!