God is so good!!! I wrote part 1 a few weeks ago. After writing it and then reading and rereading it, I wondered if I should really post it. I try to keep my blog more upbeat. But I also try to keep it real. I don’t have life all figured out or have everything all together. It’s easy to make it appear so on here. So that post sat in my drafts for a couple of weeks.
Sunday we had Communion. I rather forgot about it until we were almost to church. So I was thinking back over the last few days/weeks. So many times I am feeling down. But that morning I was feeling upbeat!! And I realized I had been feeling that way for a while… I am enjoying my role of Wife and Mom again. (I have been taking the boys down to the creek when it’s hot and we have been having a lot of fun!! Among other things, I have been enjoying life!!)
I can’t really say just when it happened, it wasn’t overnight. It was more like a slow, gradual accepting of my circumstances. As God worked in my heart, as I changed my thoughts, as I looked for the blessings in my rough spots… God was working in my heart, slowly but surely.
I am sure I will still struggle at times. There will be rough days, but over all I feel like I am coming to a place of peace. I am learning to just rest, trusting God for the strength I need each day.
I still don’t understand all the ‘why’s’ of me needing to walk through this ‘valley’. But I am sure seeing how I can allow God to make me into a better person as He works in my life.
He has shown me that I won’t be able to ‘do it all on my own’. Especially in the area of training my boys. God has shown me that He will take the little things that I can do and make them grow. He will fill in the gaps in my boys lives. I can’t do it all, really, no one can. But God!!!
My grace is sufficient for thee, my power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Cor. 12:9
This verse has become precious to me!! As I lean on God, allowing him to work through me in my boys. I am learning to enjoy Motherhood again. And am not looking at all the ‘if only’s’… I just do the best I can at the moment.
And I am finding this place of rest so sweet. It’s refreshing to just lay it all down. Resting, knowing God is still working it all out. I don’t have to know the ‘why’s’, and reasons, or see the whole picture. I’m just trusting Him to fill our needs and to lead us as He sees best!!