My Ways Are Not Your Ways

8“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
         Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD.

9“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
         So are My ways higher than your ways
         And My thoughts than your thoughts.

10“For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven,
         And do not return there without watering the earth
         And making it bear and sprout,
         And furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater;

11So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth;
         It will not return to Me empty,
         Without accomplishing what I desire,
         And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.

12“For you will go out with joy
         And be led forth with peace;
         The mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you,
         And all the trees of the field will clap their hands.

13“Instead of the thorn-bush the cypress will come up,
         And instead of the nettle the myrtle will come up,
         And it will be a memorial to the LORD,
         For an everlasting sign which will not be cut off.”

These verses have come to mean a lot to me… well, I should say the first two verses, but when I looked it up to write it here, I was blessed as I read the following verses!!! And how every ‘negative’ thing has a positive effect!!! Just amazing and such a blessing to know.

There is a song based on these verses, I cannot sing it at Church without crying!! It has a special meaning to me, it has carried me through 3 miscarriages, it has carried me through a VERY rough time in marriage, and it is carrying me through this season of life with my Lyme Journey.

I have looked everywhere online for the lyrics and YouTube for some one who sings it, but never found it. So I FINALLY remembered to bring a songbook home from Church so I can write it down!!

::My Ways Are Not Your Ways::

1) Oft the way to the goal seems so weary and long,

Trials almost take away my song;

Then we sigh and we cry and we ask,

‘Father why does this life my wishes all deny?’

 

Chorus-

My ways, my child, are not your ways,

My thoughts are higher than thine.

Let me lead you each step of this long weary day,

Let me clasp thy trembling hand in mine.

 

2) It is my hearts desire to do His blessed will,

And to serve my Master every day;

But when things all go wrong and the world doubts me still,

Then, oh Lord, I can-not understand.

 

3) So I’ll leave all to  Him, He has promised to share

All my load and ev’ry care to bear.

There is joy in my heart and on my lips a song,

Even tho’, Lord, I don’t understand.

Isn’t that beautiful?? I don’t want to sound like I am stuck in a rut, not seeming to learn to be content in life and just let it happen as God has planned. I am learning, I know I am!! It just takes me a bit to get it through this hard head of mine.

This week I was reminded again, that I don’t have to ‘be like everyone else’. I can do things in whatever way works for me. I have this ‘idealistic’ way about me!! I have all these lofty goals and ideas ideals, which are not wrong in and of themselves, but when I get caught up in it, and then feel so discouraged because I can’t attain those ideals, it is wrong.

I have always loved the idea of a ‘Home Management Binder’ -organizer type thing, (just google if you are not familiar with it, lots of blogs should give you an idea of what it is.) Everytime I would start/set one up, it just would feel so binding to me. I would get discouraged because I wouldn’t get everything done in a day that ‘I’ had planned for the day. Then I read this post– and realized right now, I just need to make a very basic plan for my days… Just the things that need to be done!! Then at the end of the day I can look back and see that, ‘Yes, I did do what needed to be done’. And if there was enough time and energy to do more than ‘Praise the Lord’. I am learning to just ‘Let go and let God’ plan my day, to do what He wants me to do. Not what I wanna do!!

So what are my goals for each day?? I’m not sure I want to put them on my blog, some may think it’s still too much or others may think it’s not enough. But for this season this is what it is…

-Get UP.:)

-Shower/dress

-Make breakfast/start wash – I do 1 or 2 loads a day

-Sweep kitchen floor

-Start supper- ie. pull out meats, etc.

-School w/ Collin

-Make lunch/clean up kitchen

-Story & Nap time

-Clean up House -Fold wash -and whatever needs to be done

-Make supper

-And some time in there have my personal devotions!!!

And there isn’t a time frame for any of it!!! I’m going to see how this works this week, which may not be the ‘best’ week to try it, as it is looking to be full. But it is not set in stone, I want it flexible so I can just roll with the punches. So maybe it will be a good week after all.

As an explanation for my devotions, I know many are very strong that it should be done first thing in the morning. While I do agree with that, right now that is not a priority. I need my sleep, and I never know what time a child will be getting up!!! One morning it may be 7, another 6:30, and another 8!! So we don’t have a morning routine around here right now. (though I know as the boys begin farm chores, it will start!!) Jevan is the one that will join me in bed… So I feel if I can find time in my day for it, it is good enough for me. And honestly, it does happen more often than not in the morning, when Jevan falls back to sleep in my bed, after he has woke me up enough that I can’t go back to sleep. Life with kids!!